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@sillygolucky - You and I are of the exact same mindset. Each of your words/sentences is as if I thought it or wrote it. I think that is why we were both looking on this website. But what you say about cats -- wow, we are the same! I felt that my cat, Damon, was connected to me on such a high level and I now believe I will see him again in the afterlife. His last three months led me to open my mind and my heart to places I hadn't been to before. We were on his journey together in so many ways. But this grief process is so hard on me. It's almost as if it's worse than when I lost my mother last year, but perhaps that is just the perception of this recent loss taking over. I feel completely broken without him. I cannot wait for the day when I can enjoy the memories without breaking down and sobbing and missing his presence. I would give almost anything to hold him close to me again, even one more time, and breathe in all of the love between us. 
I too, gave him what I felt was a perfect environment. No vaccines, no meds (not that he needed them). One time when he had a UTI I gave him only colloidal silver which worked very quickly and effectively. I made his food for him from an excellent veterinarian approved recipe. He ate a raw diet which he always loved. I never had to coax him to eat it even though it was the only "flavor" he was offered for years on end! He was as close to me physically as he could be, all throughout his days. And at night he slept in my arms or under the covers next to me with his head on my pillow. He is the first cat I have had (and I have had 11 cats in the last 50 years) that was this close to me. They were all special in their own ways but not like this. And most of my cats lived to be at least 17. One little girl was never sick a day of her 22 years. I feel really gypped that Damon only lived to be 8, and in my house, only 4 years. 
Before I began the MMS and DMSO I had given him Panacur (similar to ivermectin) and melatonin and turkey tail mushroom. I would give that after his daily MMS protocol as to not interfere with it. It certainly cannot hurt to try it all. I would have always wondered "what if" if I hadn't. 
Thank you for sharing your story. Please keep us current on your journey with Trixie.